Your Gonna Miss This...

You're gonna miss this,
You're gonna want this back.
You're gonna wish these days
Hadn't gone by so fast.
These are some good times,
So take a good look around,
You may not know it now,
You're gonna miss this.

In my life, music has always been a strong influence. I tend to find songs and make them my "theme song" or just file them in my mind as a reminder of a time in my life. Songs become the background music of my days. Since having children, I have become quite a sap about them. Long ago were the days of "I Will Survive" being my theme. Now, I tend to pick songs where children are the focus. This song by Trace Adkins is my newest favorite. If you have time, go listen to it. It is so true.

On Tuesday, we were driving home from my parent's house so that the kids could nap and rest. All the way we were chatting about the weather and how we were ready for winter to be over and that flowers would be growing soon, the tress will get leaves again, and all that stuff. As we neared the house, this song came on the radio. When we pulled in the driveway, I put the car in park and turned the engine off, and just turned around to look at the kids. Aubrey was finishing up a lollipop. Evan was kicking his feet and looking out the window. As this song played, I couldn't help but tear up.

Evan asked how to spell "go." You're gonna miss this, You're gonna want this back. I spelled it for him. Aubrey repeated it and flung her lollipop stick to the floor. Evan said,"Come on mom. Let's go! We have things to do!" You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast. I laughed at the irony of what he said and the words being sung and tears started rolling. These are some good times, So take a good look around, You may not know it now, You're gonna miss this. I sat for a few more moments just looking at them grinning at me. They had no idea why mommy was smiling at them, crying, while sitting in the driveway.

I was glad that I did just stop and look around at what was sitting behind me. My greatest joys, my greatest frustrations, my greatest hopes...all right there. But I do know it. I am going to miss this. As much as I want them to grow up and stop doing the little things that make me crazy, I know that someday I will wish for these days again. It is so cliche, but so true. They grow up to fast and so much of the time I am guilty of just hurrying through things to get to the next step/phase/stage. I need to take the time to just slow down and enjoy them for who they are at this moment in time. I will never get this time back. Before I know it they will be teenagers and probably want nothing to do with me. Then I will long for the days of changing diapers, playing dress up and riding scooters through the living room.

I need to go kiss their heads while they sleep now.

Where Does She Get This Stuff?

Aubrey. My darling second born child. She is quite gifted in the area of linguistics. She comes up with some of the most interesting comments sometimes. Tonight, she displayed this talent once again.

I was paying bills at my cozy desk while her father was to be entertaining her and the boy. She managed to sneak away from his hawk-eye to come visit me. I happened to be on the phone with a company who was trying to wriggle more money out of our checkbook so I kept her quiet by letting her scribble on some envelopes. All was going well until she spotted the stamps. Or stickers as she says. I tried to feverishly keep her from wasting $.41 cents a second and it started to get ugly. Phone call ended much to the delight of our checkbook, and I tried to convince her that it was time to go downstairs. She wanted no parts of this plan. She begins shrieking, crying, sobbing.

I calmly ask what she wants to do. She says, "I need to read mommy!!!!!" Apparently, scribbling means reading to her. I tell her that reading doesn't require a pencil but she continues her pleas. In a last ditch effort to persuade me, she yells, "I need to read mommy! I have a gift!"

WHAT? Where on earth did that come from? I just about fell over from laughter at this point. Hawk Eye asks me what she just said because he didn't think he heard it correctly. He finds it quite amusing also.

So now I have to wonder, if she is coming up with lines like this at age 2, what will the teen years have in store for me?